I don’t know if this has been established in one of the HAWPcasts before, but Doctor Who makes me cry like a little bitch. There are some episodes that literally make me bawl, as if something important had happened that legitimately warranted that degree of emotion. Doomsday, of course, is one of big ones. If I ever need “a good cry,” instead of turning on “Philadelphia” or “Step Mom” or whatever the fuck movies normal people cry at, I will sit down with some ice cream, watch Rose fall into a parallel dimension and sob like that girl in the audience of American Idol who really loved Sanjaya. Of course, when David Tennant regenerated, I completely lost my goddamn mind. I thought Doomsday was bad; I had no idea I could cry that hard for a goddamn fictional character.
As upset as this scene makes me, for some unconscionable reason, I always want to watch it. Anthony told me he had the same problem. For some reason, we both have a really strange, inexplicable urge to watch a character that we love dearly vanish before our eyes in a burst of fiery passion and sadness and horror over and over again. I actually literally just watched it, which prompted me to write this post. I knew it was going to happen. I saw him stumbling into the TARDIS, I knew exactly what was coming, and of course I cried my eyes out alone in my dorm room like a crazy person. I just have absolutely no idea why I would do that to myself. What about that scene, which obviously makes me so noticeably upset, compels me to review it again and again? Am I just masochistic? Or is there some degree of enjoyment that can be derived in the acknowledgment that a fictional character has endeared himself to you to such an extent that you bawl until your eyes burn? Or should I just stop writing this post because I sound increasingly crazier as it goes on?